This is been a weekend.

I found out earlier this week that a wonderful, fun, kind and just overall amazing individual was in the hospital. This individual I grew up with. She was in if not all my elementary school classes and we were friends throughout middle school and high school. All of the following was found out through Facebook.

When I saw that she was in the hospital, I thought it was nothing major, but I kept her in my thoughts thinking it might be routine. Well, it turned out to be much worse.

On Friday at 5 I found out that she passed away in the hospital.

My world feels shattered. But I can’t even begin to imagine what her family and her close friends are feeling.  This isn’t a person that is old, or had a long term illness. She was active and was completely fine.

Throughout elementary school we were compared to each other. I don’t know if she got that, but I was compared to her. And it was a complete honor to be compared to her. She was the most kindest, caring and just overall accepting person in the world (which at times I feel is the complete opposite of myself).

This whole weekend I’ve been reflecting on her and just thinking why would this happen to such a wonderful person. She loved everyone and was just the most amazing human being. I honestly have nothing in my heart and soul that I could say that was bad about her.

I’m flabbergasted and just completely heartbroken.

This weekend has been a lot of tears and reflection. I just wish that her family finds peace. I hope that they and she knows how many people loved her. And I’m kicking myself that I didn’t say any of this when she was alive.

Toni, you are amazing. You are incredible. You are one of a kind. I will miss you until I see you again, girl.

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